So four months have gone by and I feel like I’ve changed so much. I’m rereading all of my other posts and I just feel as if I was so naive back then. Life was simple. My mind is constantly filled with these confusing thoughts nowadays; so many ideas and contradictions. I don’t know what to believe- what’s right. I feel like a mess- everything is jumbled up inside of my head. I have been exposed to so many radical ideas these past four months, and I’ve been doing a lot of deep thinking. Except none of it is organized so I don’t know what exactly my goal is. Hopefully I can clear my thoughts a little through here- but it’s hard to accurately articulate my thoughts with words. Maybe I can practice here. In addition to clarifying my thoughts, I also want to bolster my writing and vocabulary skills (Thesaurus is my best friend right now). I want to sound eloquent and skilled (dexterous?). I want to be charismatic through words. I know I’m going to reread this and probably think I’m an idiot later, but this is what I want right now on this fine Christmas morning (1:48am).
