January 2012
2 posts
Fake Enthusiasm
Fake enthusiasm- it basically describes how I am to everyone in my school except for a select few people. There are few people who i actually like in my school. They all seem fake to me- fake and naive. And I’m probably the same. I’m nice to people, but it is only because I am conditioned to do so. And i do it in case one day I’m going to need or want something from them. It...
New Year. New me?
Do I want to change for New Year’s? Of course. And people always criticize others for wanting to change on New Years. Ohh, you should be able to set goals at any time of the year! Well, it’s nice to actually have some motivation. And you shouldn’t be discouraging others from wanting to achieve their goals. So here are some of my resolutions.
1) Stop making decisions based on...
December 2011
3 posts
Being "Unique"
There is always an emphasis on being unique- be yourself! Don’t follow what everyone else is doing! I do support this, but what is truly being unique? Having individual thoughts? How can one have individual thoughts if everything they think is somehow predisposed by some other source? I know our experiences are all unique, but the reactions to those experiences must be bias in some way. You...
Why.
And now I want to briefly explain my motivation for doing this. I have recently come upon a tumblr of an acquaintance (mad stalking bro LOL— sorry. had to.), and his writing just inspired me. He sounded so intriguing and captivated my attention immediately. I wanted to sound like him. He sounded smart (however, through further stalking, I realized his ideas were not that great and mostly...
So four months have gone by and I feel like I’ve changed so much. I’m rereading all of my other posts and I just feel as if I was so naive back then. Life was simple. My mind is constantly filled with these confusing thoughts nowadays; so many ideas and contradictions. I don’t know what to believe- what’s right. I feel like a mess- everything is jumbled up inside of my...
August 2011
1 post
End of Summer
SO. A whole summer has gone by. I believe that I have changed… A little. Haha life is different now! I DO NOT WANT SUMMER TO END. At all. I’m loving it. Even though today I was a little bored. Ugh schoool. So many faces that I don’t want to see. My friend from another town said that she liked it there so much better (she moved there). Friendlier people and environment, ya know....
June 2011
3 posts
Looking Forward to Sophomore year.
Honestly, now that Freshman year is pretty much done, I’m glad. Don’t get me wrong- I liked being a freshman. I really did. I was able to be stupid with an excuse of being a freshman. And being a sophomore, I probably still have that excuse. But I really need to get out more. This whole year, AP World has taken over all of my time. I kind of secluded myself from other people. Doing...
I don't get it.
I run away from what I want. People, for example. If I really like somebody, I find myself running away. Am I afraid of it? Maybe. But why? I really need to fix this. I wish I was braver. I wish I was able to confront people. Like my crushes? I find a way to stay as far as possible while they are still in my line of vision. I need to stop this. And also during swimming races. It’s like...
Summer!
So I’m almost done with finals. And then it’s summer! Yay! I’m actually very excited. But when the next two weeks are over, I’ll probably be so bored all the time. I need to plan my summer out and be productive. I want to meet some new people, too. AND also have some FUN with my friends. I already have a tan from swimming outside 8)
SO much going on with my life though....
April 2011
4 posts
Procrastination
WOOHOO I’m on a roleee with this bloggie.
And I was just thinking… Why do people procrastinate so much? Especially these high schoolers. EVERYONE procrastinates. I’m procrastinating right now.
I’m just gonna tell y’all what I think about it.
First, let’s define it:
Procrastination:
To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or...
Hmmm
I’m thinking of maybe adding some pictures to my blog. To spice it up. Of course, nothing too personal about myself.
But maybe I’ll reblog some things that really mean a lot to me. Which means I have to follow some more people.
We’ll see.
I'm Afraid
So I just posted something on my regular blog about how I really feel, and I’m kinda scared. I don’t really want people I know reading it, but I do at the same time.
And now I have a little idea- maybe I don’t want people to know me well. Maybe I don’t want them to know who I am. It’s none of their business. Plus, the more they know me, the more they can use it...
Update
Hello again, sorry, I kind of stopped posting… haha yeah YOU WERE FORGOTTEN. I guess this will just be a once in a while thing.
I was reading over my other post about people. EVERYONE is a freaking acquaintance. My life is about acquaintances. I honestly don’t have anyone that I absolutely NEED in my life. I’m really independent, I guess. That’s a good and bad thing. But...
February 2011
3 posts
People as a Freshman
What do I think about people? Well, my view has changed a lot. It’s probably because I’m in highschool, but I really don’t like people sometimes. I would much prefer to do things by myself. I guess its just that I don’t trust anyone. AND they really get on my nerves sometimes. But on the other hand, I need people. Just in general. And I love some of them, too. I just...
Refresh; Winter Vacation
Just posts about events in my life.
School-wise, this week has been brutal. Tests, projects, essays„ Kill me. Thank god it’s over now. Now I have a vacation the whole week- YESS! Thank you, Presidents. I have a decent amount of work, but I also don’t have much else to do. Besides swim. I guess you’ll learn more about my problems later. The one thing I don’t want to...
hi
This is my personal blog, mainly for myself. If anyone happens to like exploring my life, feel free to follow. I won’t be sharing any pictures of myself though… I don’t want anyone I know to find this and know it’s me. I just need something where people won’t judge me.
That’s just how I am. I restrict a lot about myself from other people, things that I...